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October 26, 2025 at 10:32:39 AM
hey there !! i have something to say and a request to you, mind if we take a break from eachother for a week, along with the rest of the 'gang' ?? rather this decision came up my mind from the neglect of you and the rest, considering you were the one whining like a immature child last week about being forgotten ;; ... alas, i am incredibly dissapointed in you and the rest, hence why i am so distant ... but you & the others know that this isnt the first time this happend, you know that well . i do not demand a apology, or anything . . . just silence and time until one of you finally realise that leaving me ALONE and practically LEAVING ME OUT WHENEVER IM NOT ON PT, sounds like you only gaf about me when im on some pixel-pony game, are you all too pathetic and lazy to even go on discord just to say a 'hi!! hello zixu!!' or invite me to play a game with you guys ?? just like about 2-3 days ago you played with vivi & pastel on pressure in roblox, you didnt even think about asking me to join you, whenever it was you or one of them. rather from this income i must dare say this sounds like no friendship, only fakers and liars around, yet it also sounds like you all are using me for GOD KNOWS WHAT ? for what, attention ?? my advice w mental health that none of you even USE? do any of you even know how BADLY this hurts me ? considering im already DAMN tired of trying to help others, the past and other shit. back to that topic of games, i might refuse to join in still . . . but that does not mean i do not wanna join any of you, let lonely me have a break for once. do not waste your pathetic tears and wishes for forgiveness from me, might you and pastel, even the rest possibly ACTUALLY think what i feel FOR ONCE. this has happend WAY TOO MANY TIMES BEFORE, yet theres no blink of a improvement from any of you ? i wish i wasnt this stupid to believe that you all actually cared for me. blame yourself for all i care, alas, i will not gaf ever again. i am horribly dissapointed and tired of this prison ... i thought you all knew how MUCH emotional neglect and neglect in general can hurt a child, let alone the youngest of the group, whos me. alas, goodbye once in a while.
Replied on: October 28, 2025 at 4:16:06 PM
Do you genuinely not know how HARD it is to start a conversation. Do you? I can't even strike up a conversation with my family, let alone someone else, hence why I don't have many friends in real life or online. Plus if you saw me, Vivi, and Pastel on Roblox, why didn't you ask if you could join? You know we always say yes. "Fakers and liars" and then I have NEVER lied to you nor have I faked my feelings. No one is using you, you are paranoid about this. Plus I actually use the advice by the way so thanks for not thinking I do use it!! Just shows me that you think I am a bitch who goes around asking for advice only to never use it. Have you ever considered that I am also drained? You think that I could go on Discord everyday when I come from school, specially since when I come home, my phone is always 15%; it shows that I have to be in some server to get some ounce of attention from you, or is it because I didn't see you message on TikTok? Whatever the reason, you don't go out lashing on to others, especially those whose mental health isn't the "brightest". There has been a blink of improvement but you never batted an eye to look. While yes, emotional neglect can be an impact onto you but blaming others for something you didn't also cooperate with can do some bad things to a person, which can cause overthinking to both parties. But I know you're still a child so I can't really blame you. This one is both of our faults.
You could've told this in messages on Discord, but it seems like I had to hit you with my side on how I see things.
Maybe this break is for the better. Goodbye for now.
